Calm Spirit Teapills

Yesterday, I saw LAc once again for the first time in the year 2007. Last Thursday marked the 27th week since I have been seeing LAc. I had 2 days worth of tea left over from the last time (since I missed a day) so I am to continue those for yesterday (Tuesday) and today (Wednesday). Then she gave me the following herbs for tomorrow (Thursday) and the day after (Friday) until I see her again on Saturday:

• Chinese # 0505011-1-6
• Common Yam Rhizome (Rhizoma Dioscoreae--Shanyao)
• Dodder Seed (Semen Cuscutae--Tusizi)
• Fleeceflower Root (Radix Polygoni Multiflori--Heshouwu)
• Indian Bread (Poria--Fuling)
• Plantain Seed (Semen Plantaginis--Cheqianzi)
• Safflower (Flos Carthami--Honghua)
• White Peony Root (Radix Paeoniae Alba--Baishao)

And from a different manufacturer:

• Shi Ying (Fluoritum(ore))
• Xu Duan (Dipsacus asperoides(root))

In addition, she changed the Gan Mai Da Zao Pian to the following:

• Gan Mai Da Zao Wan
• Calm Spirit Pill (these are little pellets instead of tablets)
• they are called Teapills
• it has no sugar, no artifical colors and is 100% natural
• I am to take 8 pellets twice a day with warm water or juice
• The active ingredients are as follows:

• Radix Angelicae Sinensis (Dan Gui)

  Lilium Brownii (Bai He)

  Radix Durcumae (Yu Jin)

  Fructus Jujubae (Hong Zao)

  Semen Ziziphi Spinosae (Suan Zao Ren)

  Radilx Glycyrrhizae (Gan Cao)

  Blighted Wheat Fructus Tritici Levis (Fu Xiao Mai)

  Fructus Lycium Barbarum L. (Gou Qi)

When I was taking the first ones (Gan Mai Da Zao Pian) it would make me want to BD a lot more. DH was really happy! Also, it definitely has helped me to be more at ease and relaxed. I do not feel anxious, rushed or frustrated and I actually feel care free for the most part. I do not seem to rush when I do things and I do not rush when I walk. I used to walk so fast everyone would always ask why I was always in a hurry. I would say that was my normal pace. I seem so let things that used to bother me before just pass me by.

So here I am off to a new start in the new year! So far I seem to have a pretty positive attitude about TTC, but I know that my biological clock is ticking so I really need to decide what it is I want to do if I don't conceive by a certain time. I just don't know. I feel like I need to stop and just say that I've had enough and move on to adoption, but I feel that if I don't keep trying I might lose the opportunity. I know they say parenthood is not those who bear the children but those who love and raise them. I just haven't been able to get myself to that point. More than likely we will be doing another IVF coming up really soon.