Staying Calm

Now I have just been having lots of drainage! Do you know if that's normal? I'm thinking it might be from the E2V! It really sucks. It's like AF/spotting all over again!

I think I have been staying pretty calm throughout. I have been meditating nightly. Also doing lots of praying that I will be blessed with motherhood this new year. Looking forward to IVIg tomorrow because it's one step closer to FET.

I have another E2 tomorrow, so we'll see where I stand as of then. Hopefully my FET will not be re-scheduled. IVIg is not painful and it doesn't tell me anything about my cycle. It is an infusion that RE recommends I have since I have a clotting disorder. When embryo attaches, my body forms a clot at site of implantation and prevents embie from receiving oxygen. This medication prevents that from happening. I get hooked up to an IV and then it does its work. They give me benadryl so that I don't experience any allergic reaction to the med, but it just knocks me out so I sleep most of the time. It takes about 4 hours to complete.

I have to share something I have been really sad about. I don't know if I had mentioned back in december that we would possibly be adopting a newborn last month. Well, supposedly the mom changed her mind and didn't want to put the baby up for adoption, but it turns out that now CPS has custody of the baby because the mom sold him for $200.00! It was a big deal here in Dallas and was all over the news. Isn't that just awful? To think that if we would have adopted him, he would have spent his first x-mas with us and not with strangers in a foster home. I just can't get over that and secretly pray that he will end up with us somehow. His name is Nicholas. Please keep him in your prayers! I will find out more details on this situation later this week.